Actually written on Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Tomorrow it starts… again. Thankfully, I’ve caught it before it’s gotten too far out of hand. Granted, 45 pounds isn’t anything to sneeze at, but it’s much better than the 130 pounds I had to lose before! I surely didn’t want to be one of those people who got to their goal (well, actually below it) and then gained it all back and then some. In 2004 I started doing WW online and lost about 30 pounds. At that point, I changed jobs and WW meetings were offered at work so I joined. I went on to lose another 90 pounds in just over a year. I’ll tell ya… I was the best little Weight Watcher-er. I’m an “all or nothing” kind of person and I put my all into it and pretty much didn’t waiver until I’d reached my goal. I went on to maintain or dip below my goal for the next year or so without much of a problem. I was exercising regularly and eating the plan without actually keeping track of points. I’d been doing it so long that I pretty much knew what everything was worth and when I was “done” for the day in my head. Then, a few things happened in 2007:
1. I started addressing some issues in my life that were really stressing me out.
2. I had a breast reduction surgery that summer that made me discontinue the running I’d been doing for a while (about 4 miles 3-4 times a week).
3. Unknowingly, my thyroid was under functioning and my endocrinologist didn’t bother to phone me that I needed to increase my dose of Synthroid.
I think the combination of stress and depression and under-active thyroid really took its toll. My thyroid was plummeting throughout the year but I just thought I was dealing with things that were difficult and it was making me depressed. Plus, I’d given up on my exercise program and just could never get motivated to re-start it. When it was all said and done, the damage came in the form of an extra 45 pounds. I feel terrible, I think I look terrible, I miss the old, thinner, more confident me. I want her back. I will get her back. Tomorrow is the first day back on plan and I am so looking forward to it. I need the accountability of meetings and to start journaling everything I eat, each mile I walk, and every pound I lose. You should see my charts… they are amazing and plentiful. I had one for every aspect of weight loss and those tools really kept me going and helped me along my path. I’m breaking them out again. I can’t believe I let myself get here… but not for long!
Tomorrow it starts… again. Thankfully, I’ve caught it before it’s gotten too far out of hand. Granted, 45 pounds isn’t anything to sneeze at, but it’s much better than the 130 pounds I had to lose before! I surely didn’t want to be one of those people who got to their goal (well, actually below it) and then gained it all back and then some. In 2004 I started doing WW online and lost about 30 pounds. At that point, I changed jobs and WW meetings were offered at work so I joined. I went on to lose another 90 pounds in just over a year. I’ll tell ya… I was the best little Weight Watcher-er. I’m an “all or nothing” kind of person and I put my all into it and pretty much didn’t waiver until I’d reached my goal. I went on to maintain or dip below my goal for the next year or so without much of a problem. I was exercising regularly and eating the plan without actually keeping track of points. I’d been doing it so long that I pretty much knew what everything was worth and when I was “done” for the day in my head. Then, a few things happened in 2007:1. I started addressing some issues in my life that were really stressing me out.
2. I had a breast reduction surgery that summer that made me discontinue the running I’d been doing for a while (about 4 miles 3-4 times a week).
3. Unknowingly, my thyroid was under functioning and my endocrinologist didn’t bother to phone me that I needed to increase my dose of Synthroid.
I think the combination of stress and depression and under-active thyroid really took its toll. My thyroid was plummeting throughout the year but I just thought I was dealing with things that were difficult and it was making me depressed. Plus, I’d given up on my exercise program and just could never get motivated to re-start it. When it was all said and done, the damage came in the form of an extra 45 pounds. I feel terrible, I think I look terrible, I miss the old, thinner, more confident me. I want her back. I will get her back. Tomorrow is the first day back on plan and I am so looking forward to it. I need the accountability of meetings and to start journaling everything I eat, each mile I walk, and every pound I lose. You should see my charts… they are amazing and plentiful. I had one for every aspect of weight loss and those tools really kept me going and helped me along my path. I’m breaking them out again. I can’t believe I let myself get here… but not for long!
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